Change is challenging.

And yes, I mean in every aspect of the word. 

But a lot of time, I believe that what we think we want to change isn't the problem at all, it's ourself. And that alone could be the hardest feat of all.

Everyone has a story, different from the rest, yet similar in some areas in which we connect and grow, together. You latch on to people that find the same emotion in things that you do. The rain makes you vulnerable, sensitive. Romantic movies/novels make you sad, yet hopeful. The awfully rude people you work with make you irritable and spiteful; towards anyone that crosses your path. A majority of the time, the people we latch onto we feel better around. We feel that because we have common faults, they can't be faults at all.

Wrong. 

I never understood how one would "surround yourself with people you strive to be." I'm too independent for that, I'm the better one of my friends, they should want to strive to be me.

And there it was, arrogance. Something all of my friends and I had in common.

It took me a really long time to come face to face with my denied flaw but once I did, figuring out how to change it was the next step. I came to find that who I surrounded myself with was the issue. I lost a lot of friends, yes. But my happiness is significantly different, even if it had to cause heart ache to get there. 

Some of my very best friends were toxic and in the reverse, the great ones weren't letting me be me: someone full of faults. 

I learned that when the going gets tough, all of your friends judge you. But I also learned that when you have to stand up, even if on your own, you build character. A new found character that makes you wonder

Maybe change is good.

xo - d